Bring on the work week!

Mondays are always hard. In this case, I just want the week to be over. I've really come to learn that Halloween is my least favorite holiday. It has gotten so much bigger over the years, but being new in town, for us, Thursday night Trick-or-Treating will be it (besides what the kids have going on at school that day). We skipped the town parade last night. We don't know anyone local having a Halloween party. Growing up I loved Halloween, because I loved candy. But as a grown-up with a weight issue, it reminds me that I know I was born loving candy. I had no self restraint. My candy was gone within a week. As a small child, when I first starting get a quarter for an allowance, I would automatically go to the store to get a candy bar. And when I eventually got a dollar, I would get 4 candy bars.

But I didn't have a weight problem until my adult years. The highest I was until I was 30 was 157, which was only 3 lbs overweight, but I spent most of my high school years and 20s fluctuating between 125 and 142.

I just want Halloween to be over so I can figure out how much candy the kids will keep and get the rest out of the house as quickly as possible. I am thinking I may work from home on Thursday instead of Friday so I can bring in our extra candy on Friday.

I want it to be November. I want to celebrate my mom's 75th birthday and Thanksgiving. I want to get over the looming 1 year anniversary of my mother-in-law's passing. So I can get beyond the anniversary of going to Disney and being horrified at the pictures of me and knowing that we are 1 year away from going back to Disney. Bring on November, so I can get to December, December 1st being my 1 year anniversary of joining Weight Watchers, and December being Christmas, my favorite time of year.

But for now I just want the work week to come and go. I hate being wrapped up in the World Series. We will know by week's end who wins. Of course I want the Red Sox to win, but really I just it over. I want to go to Bootcamp in the morning because I did ZERO exercise this weekend. And I want it to be next weekend because I want to see if I can maintain being under 200 (I was 200.2 on Sunday and 200.8 this morning).

Weekly Weigh-in #48

Starting Weight (12/1/2012): 232.2
Last Week: 201.6
Current Weight: 199.4
Change Since Last Week: -2.2
Total Change: -32.8
Height: 5'6"
Goal: 149

Woo  Hoo! I hit 199.4 this morning! I was secretly hoping it would be more, but I will take it!

I made a decision that I can have NO Halloween candy this year because it is such a trigger food. And I want to lose a pound this week so I am under 200 at WW next week.

In 2010 when I was losing 30 lbs, it took me a month from the first time I saw the 190s to the last time I saw the 200's. I don't want the same thing to happen this time. I want this to be it! I need to comfortably get into the 190s, so that means I need to be pretty buttoned up in the next few weeks.

Next week I am going to be speaking at my WW meeting as someone who has continued success - pretty cool! If I could somehow manage a 2.2 lb loss, then I would have lost 35 lbs! (But I am not expecting that at all).

So, so close!

Scale this morning said 200.2! Even seeing the scale say 200.X the other morning was wonderful as it was the first "new number" I had seen since July (at the end of July my weight dropped to 201.6 but then immediately shot up 5 lbs in a few days of enormous stress and sleep deprivation, a weight that wouldn't drop for weeks and weeks).

I have been extremely vigilant this week, because I just want to get under that darn number! To the extent that last night I made the kids Mac and Cheese and had a PB&J sandwich (my usual Friday night dinner, not Thursday night).  I had planned simple dinners I knew I wouldn't overeat.

I didn't run this past weekend. I was up way too late Saturday night celebrating the Red Sox going to the World Series.

I did get up and go to Bootcamp on Tuesday after not going last week. It was hard to get up! One of our stations was having to climb on our bellies the whole length and back of a basketball court - I had serious rug burn on my elbows from that :(

I am not going to do my race tomorrow. This is how neurotic I am (well, that and my daughter has an important soccer game I don't want to miss and my husband was invited to an activity that he didn't want to miss out on, that has him leaving the house at 11 am). Yes, I know I should be putting myself first. But I AM going to still run 6.66 miles this weekend, just on my own on Sunday morning. And I am going to try to run as fast as I would in a race. And then after this weekend I plan on upping my workouts and cutting back on my running.

I didn't go to Bootcamp on Thursday morning because I still hadn't decided if I was going to race or not and I didn't want to tire myself out.

Oh yeah, the neurotic part of why I am not racing tomorrow. If I was going to race in the morning, I would need to carbo load tonight - I can't run 6.66 with only eating a PB&J sandwich the night before, and I really, really think I can see under 200 in the morning and I wouldn't see that if I had a big pasta dinner. So that is my battle with the scale.

Weekly Weigh-in #47

Starting Weight (12/1/2012): 232.2
Last Week: 201.6
Current Weight: 201.6
Change Since Last Week: -0.0
Total Change: -30.6
Height: 5'6"
Goal: 149


What a bad week! Lots of sickies in our family (one of them being me) so I ate a ton of carbs.
I woke up this morning weighing 206.6 and decided not to go to WW because I just have too much to do today, but 2 hours later after lots of trips to the bathroom I was 201.6.

So back to basics this week. Not deviating from the normal routine and see if I can get under 200!

Back to the bike path

It  has been since August 18th since I've been on the bike path that I ran almost weekly since April.

Since then:
--The weekend after vacation I took the first weekend off in running in 2+ months
--The weekend after I needed to run a 5K prior to my race, so ran locally
--Next weekend was the race
--Next weekend I hauled dirt both days
--Next weekend I ran a 5K race
--The next weekend was fogged in a with a To Do list a mile long, I didn't have the time
--Last weekend was rainy, cold and wet - ie I slept in :)

I wasn't exactly sure how far I would run today - I had hope for 6 miles, but wasn't complete set on it. When I reached one of the cross roads I was only at 2.25 miles - I was kind of a maniac in the middle of the (thankfully empty) road, I kept turning around, then deciding to keep going, then turning around. I decided I wasn't ready to turn back. For a but I thought that if I got back to the car after 4.5 miles, I could turn around a run a couple more miles, but I figured that probably wouldn't happen!

So I kept running until I hit 3.14 miles and then turned around. Running felt so great. The bike trail was so beautiful with all the foliage (though also covered in leaves and pine needles so I was a little worried about slipping).

Running with the Garmin is so much better than Map Your Run. I thought I liked the little voice in my ear,  but I don't miss it! I periodically look at my watch to see how fast I am going and I like the vibration at each mile, but I definitely feel like I am running fast and stronger because of it (and minus the voice in my ear - previously as long as I had run .2 miles every 2.5 minutes I was okay, but I can run faster than 12:30 minute miles, so I feel like I am pushing myself).

Towards the end of my run I did feel some pain in my left foot - it felt like stress fracture pain, not muscle or tendon pain. I am hoping not.

I need to clean the house today but I am feeling like a lazy butt!

Weekly Weigh-in #46

Starting Weight (12/1/2012): 232.2
Last Week: 201.8
Current Weight: 201.6
Change Since Last Week: -0.2
Total Change: -30.6
Height: 5'6"
Goal: 149
I am just happy with a small loss this week. It was far from a great week - I don't know if it was stress or just PMS, but 2-3 nights the munchies were huge while making dinner - and by munchies I mean cheese!

But I did make it to bootcamp both Tuesday and Thursday. Tuesday kicked my ass. We had a substitute and he pretty much had us running laps in the hallways (and up and down stairs) with a tiny bit of strength in between. The way the normal bootcamp works is you aren't competing against anyone but yourself, but running laps makes it obvious who the strong ones and who aren't and that didn't make me feel good about myself. Thursday was better - a lot more strength that cardio.

I didn't get a run in last weekend either - I pretty much erased my 6.66 race from my mind and my calendar. I had a couple of friends running their first 1/2 marathon last weekend in cold, raw, windy, rainy weather - ugh. I chose to stay inside and enjoy an impromptu (because the weather people totally got the weather wrong) rain day.

This week I am going to keep trucking. I would LOVE to be under 200 by next week, but a 1.8 lb loss would be a lot. So 2 weeks from now.

We have a neighborhood party tonight which I really don't want to go to. I would love a night to myself, go to bed early, get up and run 6-7 miles tomorrow morning. I'll see how the night goes.

Weekly Weigh-in #45

Starting Weight (12/1/2012): 232.2
Last Week: 204.4
Current Weight: 201.8
Change Since Last Week: -2.6
Total Change: -30.4
Height: 5'6"
Goal: 149

I am so close to 200 I can feel it. On July 27th I weighed 202.2 having lost almost 4 lbs without trying and by Monday (after 3 sleepless nights) I was up 5 lbs and have been bouncing around over 205 ever since.

But this week I did try. It was not a perfect week by any means- too much homemade apple crumble, too many Oreos, too much grazing on Wednesday and Thursday.

It frustrates me because in this week I only worked out once as well.

I think I've officially decided what I knew a couple weeks ago that I am going to skip the 6.66 race. Tomorrow morning I have to get up at 4:00 am to do work, so no way I can go on a long run after that. Getting in a long run today seems pretty impossible.

It isn't that I am giving up running, by any point. Any someday I would like to do a 10K, but for now I really need to concentrate on the weight loss and if that means cutting back on the exercise (I know, sounds weird) to propel myself below 200, then that is what I am going to have to do. I want to go for a 5 mile run "just because", I want to work out a lot "just because" - I am just not in the mood to be training for anything in particular right now.

I need to keep my weekends as clean as I can. Breakfast and lunches and at least morning snacks should try to be my routine. Afternoon snacks and Saturday night dinners can be off plan. I need to wake up on Monday morning and not be 2-4 lbs higher than I was on Saturday morning.

At my meeting this morning, she reminded us that Thanksgiving is 8 weeks away, and because Thanksgiving is so late this year, the Saturday after Thanksgiving will be my 1 year anniversary on WW. Since I don't do well with specific number goals, all I am going to say is I want to be comfortably below 200 - Of course I would like to be a lot more than that, but I can't commit. I want to be at a place that if I have a large meal, when I wake up the next morning I am STILL under 200 lbs.

Whole lot of nothing this week....

Not much exercise I mean. After blowing off running on Sunday, I did got to Bootcamp on Tuesday - it was a killer leg workout - usually the circuits are a mix of arms and legs and core, but this one was almost all legs.

Wednesday I didn't get up to work out - My husband had to get up at 4 am to travel and I was up at that time, but had gone to bed at 11 so drifted in and out of sleep until 6:30.

And Wednesday night I stayed up way too late after he got home, so I blew off Bootcamp this morning as well.

Eating had started out fairly well this week, but has progressively gotten worse. This evening I thought I would have 2 hours to myself, but instead my daughter had a sore throat so I was at home with just her and found myself munching with all the stress of all the work I didn't get done as planned. Scandal is premiering tonight so no work for me tonight!