Weekly Weigh-in

Last Week's Weight: 196.4
This Week's Weight: 195.4
Change: -1.0
Total Loss since 3/25/2010: -20.6

I am not feeling my usual chipper Thursday morning self. Even though I am where I was 2 weeks ago when I got my 10%, I am not convinced that I will actually stay this same this week at WW. And the fact that I've got quite a few food hurdles coming up in the next week, makes me nervous. I would love to have a loss for next week, but right now I am just concerned about staying the same.

Hurdles for the week:
Thursday dinner - out with a friend - going to drink water, not alcohol, going to have a veggie quesadilla and maybe some wings
Friday lunch - work function - hopefully just a salad with protein
Friday dinner - on the road - probably fast food
Saturday - mid morning - mid afternoon (ie 2 snacks and lunch) - on the road

Hopefully all other meals for the week should be planned.

I will get in my work out on Friday morning but won't be able to do anything probably for the whole weekend - Maybe Sunday night, but I doubt it.

Deck is cleared.....

Next to my treadmill was a big pile of baby stuff that I needed to get rid of. Back in the spring, when I had a brief 2 week jaunt of working out, looking at that pile was a distraction because all I could think of was a big To Do list of getting rid of it.

A month ago, when I started walking again, I decided to take the pile and put it in the middle of my basement for 2 reasons: 1) As a reminder I had to get rid of it and 2) Blocking all other means of working out other than the treadmill so I could start more slowly and get into the swing of things, instead of jumping to the bike or the Step on Day 2. Doing this would have probably resulted in me hurting myself and also not getting used to the idea of getting up at the crack of dawn to work out.

A month later the pile is gone and I think I am getting ready to mix it up with my work outs. I will continue to walk on the treadmill, maybe in 3-4 days a week, but the other day I'll do something different. I have a lot of choose from: Bike with 2 videos, Step with 2 videos, various Richard Simmons videos, kick boxing videos. And Jillian's 30 Day Shred is on it's way.

I am going to make sure I don't overdue it, because I would hate to have to stop working out. Watching The Biggest Loser last night, I cringed at how much they were jumping on their huge bodies - My knees just hurt watching them.

In addition to different kinds of cardio, I can not wait to pick up a hand-weight. I miss lifting weights. I miss being strong! Paddling a canoe a month ago gave me such a high! I can't wait to be at that high place again.

24 hours off program....

I have been back on since 6:30 this morning.

Yesterday afternoon we had a social event at work - at 3:00 pm. After having my snack, I mindlessly had a complete lunch - alcoholic beverage, cheeseburger, pasta salad and chocolate chip cookie. Then had a late dinner, complete with 2 servings of my husband's yummy chicken parm and pasta.

And then I proceeded to stay up until 11:30 watching DVRed shows. And thus I didn't wake up to work out this morning. But it will NOT be a habit. It was just the season premiere of too many shows. Going forward I WILL go to sleep by 10:30. TV is NOT than important.

But I did well at the grocery store. And I ate breakfast before I went. And have been eating my usual food today, even though I am home.

WW is back on

We got the 15 people we needed to sign up again at work. Thank god! I really didn't want to have to go to a center. I found myself being the one who answered almost all of the newcomers questions. I know working at WW is a part-time gig and I will always need a job that provides more hours and income. But I would absolutely love to work there someday. Or quit my job, go back to school, and become a Nutritionist. But that isn't going to happen. But I could talk about weight-loss all day long.

Weekly Weigh-In

Last Week: 195.4
This Week: 196.4
Change: +1.0
Total Lost: 19.6

I was expecting the gain after my 4 day mini-binge/non-tracking period last Friday - Monday. But the damage could have been a whole lot worse.

This week I am hoping to get down to 194.0. But with PMS coming up I'll have to work extra hard. But I can do it.

Today we find out if WW At Work is renewed for another session. I am thinking it is highly unlikely. So then I will be stuck going to a center at lunch time on Thursdays. I've never gone consistently to a center. I like it so much more when your Leader is weighing you in and the group is small and full of people you know. But I will force myself to go to the center because this past week, knowing I wouldn't have to get weighed in, was proof of what happens when I am not accountable to anyone.

This past week has also shown how quickly I can go from feeling great about myself, to not feeling so good. I was tempted to grab the 18W pants this morning and not the 16W, but I didn't. The smaller pants do make me feel better.

Here is to a good week!

The Biggest Loser

While I can't work out while the show is actually on, this will be the first season where I wake up the next morning and work out. This will be the first season where I will weigh less at the finale than I did at the premiere. While I was 199.0 this morning, I probably am more like 196. I would like to be 184 by the finale. That is the same weight I was when I got married.

Back on the wagon

Pretty much as soon as I last posted on Friday, things slid downhill very quickly. I made the mistake of going to the grocery store on an empty stomach. Quick meals of Pad Thai called my name as I was planning on making it from scratch this week. So I had 2, yes 2, different ones for breakfast, yes breakfast. They were 8 and 10 points each! Then I figured that was it, I would be okay for the rest of the day. Not. Munching here and there lasted all weekend. And we went to one of my favorite tex-mex restaurants and I was starving.

So when I stepped on the scale on Monday it said 198.8! And Monday was a crazy day at work so for the first time in months I ate off schedule and bought breakfast. And I munched like crazy when I got home and was making dinner. So this morning it said 199.0!

But the good news was I forced myself to bed at 10:45 (15 minutes later than I would have liked) and woke up to walk on the treadmill - 45 minutes, 3.0 max, 2.25 miles.

Weekly Weigh-In - 10%

Previous Weight: 197.8
Current Weight: 195.4
Change: -2.4
Total Loss: -20.6

I finally got my 10% at our last At Work meeting this week. Hopefully we'll get 15 people to join again, but I doubt we will, so I will have to join a meeting at a center.

I was feeling on top of the world, but then this morning I had my first binge in I don't know how long - months? I made the mistake of going to the grocery store hungry. I wanted to eat the crap I bought as soon as I got home, so it is gone and hopefully the rest of the week will be okay.

I did get up and walk on the treadmill again this morning - It was the first time my alarm actually woke me up. But I did it.

Straight to the donate pile

For the second time in a week, I took off a pair of pants at the end of the day, washed them, and put them right in the donate pile. The first pair I was pretty afraid all day would fall off. The second pair just looked so baggy and saggy. Both pairs were size 18w. I have some pairs of size 18 that still fit, but with the extra room in the "W" pants, they are getting too big. And that also means that I have 16Ws that I can wear. Unfortunately straight on size 16s don't seem to fit well around the stomach. Darn kids!

I am worried about weigh-in tomorrow. I so badly wanted my 10%. On Saturday, the scale at home would have given me my 10% but I am back up 1 lb since then and I am afraid it won't go away before tomorrow. If it doesn't, I may end up with a stay-the-same. Ugh.

There have been days this week that I have been concerned if I am actually getting enough points. Since changing my afternoon yogurt to Fiber One, which is 0 points, I actually have 11 points left over for dinner. I am very new at calculating my dinner points, so I am either not doing it right, or I am actually under points for the day. But I have used 26 of my 35 points.

I haven't eaten enough veggies this week. I need to teach my husband to make more. Even though peas are technically a starch, when he makes dinner he makes enough vegetables for all 4 of us, that I would eat by myself.

So tonight I am making a little whole wheat pasta with the last of the homemade sauce from last year. I need to make sure I get my oil as that is another thing that has been lacking. And then I am making a huge salad. Need to stop on the way home and get some peppers.

Crossing my fingers.

So far so good....

After my WW meeting yesterday I created some new menu planning grids to work with to make it easier for me to decide our dinners and know how much of dinner I can eat.

I also created a one page/week tracker so I can more easily track my 35 points. I like my 3 month book but you keep having to flip back to the 35 points.

Last night's dinner of chicken-stir fry was quickly derailed when my husband had to work to remove computer viruses from our company's machines. No way I could have done all the cutting up for stir-fry with the kids around, plus they wouldn't be interested in it to begin with. So I made breakfast for dinner for the 3 of us - eggs, sausage, pancakes - quick and I did stay within my points.

I got all my stuff ready for walking on the treadmill this morning, but my son was up at 1:00 am and I didn't fall asleep again until 2:30. It was okay the other morning when I was up from 11-12. But I was just too tired, so the alarm got turned off.

The scale was down this morning. I can lose .8 by Thursday. I can lose .8 by Thursday. I also tried on several of my size 16 pairs of pants and then fit! One pair of jeans was actually too big so I put it in the donate pile. I think I am firmly a size 16W, but not a size 16.

I will stay within my points this weekend. I will. I will.

Weekly Weigh-In

I was not surprised at all this morning

Last Week's Weight: 198.0
This Week's Weight: 197.8
Change This Week: -0.2
Total Change: -18.2

I stayed the same at my WW meeting.

My motivation this week is to lose 1.8 lbs so I can get my 10% keychain before the At Work session ends. In order to do that I need to track every single item that goes in my mouth, for real. Isn't that how you are supposed to do WW to begin with? :)

The good and the bad

The good since last Thursday is that I have gotten up the last 2 mornings at 5:30 am to walk on the treadmill. Nothing fast - max of 2.7 and 2.8 mph, but I did it for 45 minutes, walking about 2 miles. Again, nothing stellar. But a whole lot more than I have been doing.

When I briefly worked out last spring, after 1 slow walk on the treadmill, I dove into the bike, and the Step video, and the exercise videos. It was too much, too quickly. Having 2 small children, you are often so tired and I just couldn't phathom doing those things exhausted. But you can walk, even so slowly, when you are tired. Last night my 18 month old son was up screaming from teething, at midnight. I had already been asleep for over an hour and a half. I was tempted to turn the alarm off right then and there. But I made myself still get up and face the music. I can do this. I really can do this.

The bad is some really poor food choices over the last week, which will probably result in a gain tomorrow. A gain in a week when I was hoping to lose at least a pound or 2 so I can make my 10% next week.

I can plan meals out really well - I can look at the menu, I can decide before hand what I will have. But the unplanned meals out, I don't do very well at. Hence, the onion rings with my salad on Saturday. But I still didn't have any soda. And the next day when we drove through McDonalds and I was starving, I still only got a cheeseburger, a small fries (of which half I gave to my daughter) and a bottled water. I could have easily gotten a Big Mac, large fries and a large soda. And Monday I was really exhausted having been up half the night with my son, so despite making some good food choices at home, there was a lot of snacking and nibbling and tasting.

But I think in this week, the good really does outweigh the bad.

Weekly Weigh-In

I was a little nervous about weigh-in this morning since we had sausages and baked beans last night, both high in sodium. But I was pleasantly surprised.

Last Week's Weight: 202.6
This Week's Weight: 198.0
Change This Week: -2.6
Total Change: -18.0

I am wearing a pair of capris I hadn't wore this summer yet. They are still Size 18, but are kind of baggy (and nice and light for WW Weigh-in at 11:00 am)

We are probably going to be out of the house for lunches on Saturday and Sunday, but I am going to try to be good.

Clothes shopping in my closet

Before our shopping adventure this weekend, I decided to take inventory of what was in my closet (and the bins in the attic) - So much I had forgotten about! I was annoyed with myself at all the XL summer work shirts I found. After spending a summer hating my wardrobe, I could have been so much happier had I remembered all these clothes.

I was pleasantly surprised by how many XL shirts I do have for fall - I need to try them on this week to see how they fit on the post-child #2 body. I will get a few more pieces, but thankfully my wallet will not take as much as a hit as I had originally thought.

What is lacking is the pairs of pants. In my house, I have pants from size 18 to size 8 - granted in size 8, 10 and 12 I only have a couple pairs of jeans that I have saved. And I have a few size 14 and 16, but not enough to last me through the weight-loss so I will have to buy my staple clothing (khakis and black pants) to get me through.

I brought up all the Size L summer shirts as I will not need them until next summer (I could dream that they would be too big next summer) but I left them readily accessible to try on when I am ready. So many honeymoon items - How I missed them! But again, hoping that by next summer that size 14 and size L will be too big.

So last night was about organizing - tonight will be the actual trying on. Now that I finally have a full-length mirror in my house, I can get an honest look. Could be a good thing, could be a bad thing.

So what is left in my closet:
Hanging: Size 18 pants and size XL shirts
On the top shelf: Size 16 pants (with a couple of size 14 underneath and size 12 and size 10 jeans hidden there too) and size L winter shirts.

What is in the attic:
Size L summer shirts
Size L work out clothes/hiking clothes
A smattering of size M shirts, even a couple size S shirts!, and a smattering of size M/8-12 shorts and pants

I will fit into these again!