Of course I am very excited to go on our trip - I've been planning it for 11 months. But the anxiety about what the scale will say when I get back is annoying me.
I want to go on vacation and enjoy myself - Yes it will be stressful because it is such a short trip. But I've always said that I have incredibly low expectations about the trip - as long as my 4 year daughter gets to meet Cinderella, really,all the rest is gravy. We had originally planned on going back to the hotel for naps 2 days and trying to stay at the Magic Kingdom all day on Sunday, but I think we'll go back to the hotel that day as well. No point in running everyone ragged. Not at this age.
When I first starting planning the trip back in February, I really thought I would be at 172 by this trip. That is the weight I was when me and my husband starting dating, which is 8 years ago this coming Friday. But I am okay with not being anywhere near that goal.
But I am worried about is that the scale could actually say over 200 when I get back. I know that is insane - 9 lbs in 5 days, I really doubt it. And I know I can control it. But I don't even want it to say over 195. I've gone through the menus and looked at what I may have at the places that are not buffets or family style meals. It's the snacks I am a little bit more worried about. We'll be walking a lot I know. And I am bringing Fiber One bars to snack on. But I will have a few treats here and there. But this vacation is not an excuse to eat everything in sight and derail my progress.
I was back to 191.0 this morning and I've said all along that my goal for December 31st is to weigh the same (or less but I am not going to stress about that) than I do the day we leave for vacation.
But I am going to to stop stressing. I am going to enjoy my daughter's first Disney vacation (and only my second, the first being 10 years ago when I was 30), make smart choices but not stress, and take it all in.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Monday, November 29, 2010
Weight Watchers is taking over my day
I really should be doing a lot of work, but I am completely procrastinating by figuring out as much as I can about the new plan on-line. I will be on vacation during our At Work meeting on Thursday but I am going to try to go to a center where my leader teaches on Wednesday morning so I can get the materials and buy the calculator.
I am at 29 daily points, like a lot of the world it seems, since that is the minimum # of points. I think they take height and age into consideration - I don't think weight is as much of a factor since I am still considered obese and I get the minimum # of points. Though since there is no quiz to take, who knows if we'll every know how it is calculated.
I am not up at arms about the fact that my processed foods are now more points. My # of points a day went up by 5 (from 24 to 29) but the foods I eat breakfast - snack are now 20 points instead of 14. So I will need to spend some time evaluating my food choices and trying to make some changes. But that may not happen until after the holidays.
I know my biggest change I need to make is to stop eating a Lean Cuisine Deluxe Pizza every day for lunch - It was 7 points (though sometimes I cut it down to 6 points by literally cutting 1/7th of it out) and now it is 9 pts.
I definitely have cut down on my processed foods from a year ago, but I definitely have room for improvement. I am one of those people this new program was designed for, so I will embrace it and see what happens.
I am at 29 daily points, like a lot of the world it seems, since that is the minimum # of points. I think they take height and age into consideration - I don't think weight is as much of a factor since I am still considered obese and I get the minimum # of points. Though since there is no quiz to take, who knows if we'll every know how it is calculated.
I am not up at arms about the fact that my processed foods are now more points. My # of points a day went up by 5 (from 24 to 29) but the foods I eat breakfast - snack are now 20 points instead of 14. So I will need to spend some time evaluating my food choices and trying to make some changes. But that may not happen until after the holidays.
I know my biggest change I need to make is to stop eating a Lean Cuisine Deluxe Pizza every day for lunch - It was 7 points (though sometimes I cut it down to 6 points by literally cutting 1/7th of it out) and now it is 9 pts.
I definitely have cut down on my processed foods from a year ago, but I definitely have room for improvement. I am one of those people this new program was designed for, so I will embrace it and see what happens.
Back to the grind...for 3 days
My long weekend was not the healthy eating, except for 1 meal, that I thought it would be. But it is Monday and I am back on track...For 3 days until we go on vacation for 5 days.
I really should have thrown away the rest of the apple pie that we didn't eat on Thursday and I didn't give to my parents. My husband prefers pumpkin pie and my kids apparently only like the ice cream next to the pie. So unfortunately I found myself finishing 1/2 the pie (not all at once!).
I spent the majority of the long weekend running around getting stuff organized for our trip, but that also resulted in some snacking and no real exercise at all. But in my defense, my foot is starting to bother me some (I had a mild case of plantar fasitis back in the spring) and I am worried about aggrivating it too much before vacation.
Saturday I went and bought tons of snacks for our trip - Wednesday I will organize what I actually bring. I got Fiber One bars for myself and a bunch of crackers and granola bar type stuff for the kids. We are on the Deluxe Dining Plan at Disney so some snacks come with that, but I don't want to be shelling out tons of money for crap food. None of us need it. Though I will try some of the tasty snacks Disney has to offer. I've only been their once, when I was 30, so I really don't know what to expect.
I did feel a little down this weekend because the scale wasn't saying very nice things. In the past 9 months, I would have used that as a reason to get back on track. But I didn't. I ate. An unfamiliar feeling and a feeling that sucks! I ate because I was stressed and anxious and excited. But I am back on track today for the next 3 days. Maybe, just maybe, I can lose 1.2 lbs in that time?! I doubt it, but I will try.
I really should have thrown away the rest of the apple pie that we didn't eat on Thursday and I didn't give to my parents. My husband prefers pumpkin pie and my kids apparently only like the ice cream next to the pie. So unfortunately I found myself finishing 1/2 the pie (not all at once!).
I spent the majority of the long weekend running around getting stuff organized for our trip, but that also resulted in some snacking and no real exercise at all. But in my defense, my foot is starting to bother me some (I had a mild case of plantar fasitis back in the spring) and I am worried about aggrivating it too much before vacation.
Saturday I went and bought tons of snacks for our trip - Wednesday I will organize what I actually bring. I got Fiber One bars for myself and a bunch of crackers and granola bar type stuff for the kids. We are on the Deluxe Dining Plan at Disney so some snacks come with that, but I don't want to be shelling out tons of money for crap food. None of us need it. Though I will try some of the tasty snacks Disney has to offer. I've only been their once, when I was 30, so I really don't know what to expect.
I did feel a little down this weekend because the scale wasn't saying very nice things. In the past 9 months, I would have used that as a reason to get back on track. But I didn't. I ate. An unfamiliar feeling and a feeling that sucks! I ate because I was stressed and anxious and excited. But I am back on track today for the next 3 days. Maybe, just maybe, I can lose 1.2 lbs in that time?! I doubt it, but I will try.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Weekly Weigh In
Last Week: 191.2
This Week: 192.4
Change: +1.2
The gain was definitely expected, though I was up over 3 lbs at one point. But even my dinners this week were larger, with seconds a couple times. My husband likes to have rolls for Thanksgiving but I decided last year that we just don't need them so I made rolls with our Wednesday pasta.
We had dinner today at 4:00 instead of our 1:00 - 2:00 of years past. My husband and I decided that we'll definitely do that from now on. Today the Patriot's were playing at the 12:30 game so I made a bunch of fancy appetizers (not normal football fare) to eat for lunch. I love appetizers, so I think we may do that in the future for lunch on Thanksgiving, but eat more around noon.
I only had one helping for dinner. I really don't love Thanksgiving food except for the stuffing. And I didn't finish my dessert. I did feel full, though not stuffed. It wasn't a nice feeling.
We have a week before we leave on vacation - I am going to try to eat healthy and smart from now until then. I'd love to be down to at least 191.0 (which I was last Friday) by then.
This Week: 192.4
Change: +1.2
The gain was definitely expected, though I was up over 3 lbs at one point. But even my dinners this week were larger, with seconds a couple times. My husband likes to have rolls for Thanksgiving but I decided last year that we just don't need them so I made rolls with our Wednesday pasta.
We had dinner today at 4:00 instead of our 1:00 - 2:00 of years past. My husband and I decided that we'll definitely do that from now on. Today the Patriot's were playing at the 12:30 game so I made a bunch of fancy appetizers (not normal football fare) to eat for lunch. I love appetizers, so I think we may do that in the future for lunch on Thanksgiving, but eat more around noon.
I only had one helping for dinner. I really don't love Thanksgiving food except for the stuffing. And I didn't finish my dessert. I did feel full, though not stuffed. It wasn't a nice feeling.
We have a week before we leave on vacation - I am going to try to eat healthy and smart from now until then. I'd love to be down to at least 191.0 (which I was last Friday) by then.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Thankful for my children....
It seems so cliche to be thankful for your kids. But Thanksgiving time really hits home for me.
5 years ago today, it was Thanksgiving day, and I found out I was pregnant with my daughter. It was the end of the day, on a whim (after a couple glasses of wine!) I decided to test, even though it was early (I wasn't even late yet) - the line was so faint, so faint I didn't even show it to my husband. But a test the next day was definitely positive, though I still braved Black Friday to drive to Walmart to get a bunch more tests. I did pray that Thanksgiving night that I would have a baby for the next Thanksgiving. My mom had had 6 miscarriages, so I was very scared for what the future might bring. The future brought a beautiful baby girl on 8/7/06.
Thanksgiving 2007 was spent recovering from a miscarriage at 13 weeks. I didn't want to eat. I wanted to loose the 10 lbs I had gained in that first trimester. I prayed that I would be pregnant the next Thanksgiving.
And I was. The week before Thanksgiving 2008 I was 22 weeks and was supposed to go on vacation to Florida. Since I was at a high-risk for an incompetent cervix, though I had had no issues with my daughter, my OB wanted to check before I went on vacation and what he found was a 2 cm cervix when it should be well over 3 cm. So I was put on bedrest - At this point I was 10 days shy of viability. So we had no idea what the future would bring. I prayed that for Thanksgiving 2009 I would have a 8-9 month old baby. Thankfully, 14 weeks of bedrest (not strict bedrest, I was able to work from home) allowed me to walk into my c-section at 39w on St Patrick's Day 2009. And my prayers were answered.
5 years ago today, it was Thanksgiving day, and I found out I was pregnant with my daughter. It was the end of the day, on a whim (after a couple glasses of wine!) I decided to test, even though it was early (I wasn't even late yet) - the line was so faint, so faint I didn't even show it to my husband. But a test the next day was definitely positive, though I still braved Black Friday to drive to Walmart to get a bunch more tests. I did pray that Thanksgiving night that I would have a baby for the next Thanksgiving. My mom had had 6 miscarriages, so I was very scared for what the future might bring. The future brought a beautiful baby girl on 8/7/06.
Thanksgiving 2007 was spent recovering from a miscarriage at 13 weeks. I didn't want to eat. I wanted to loose the 10 lbs I had gained in that first trimester. I prayed that I would be pregnant the next Thanksgiving.
And I was. The week before Thanksgiving 2008 I was 22 weeks and was supposed to go on vacation to Florida. Since I was at a high-risk for an incompetent cervix, though I had had no issues with my daughter, my OB wanted to check before I went on vacation and what he found was a 2 cm cervix when it should be well over 3 cm. So I was put on bedrest - At this point I was 10 days shy of viability. So we had no idea what the future would bring. I prayed that for Thanksgiving 2009 I would have a 8-9 month old baby. Thankfully, 14 weeks of bedrest (not strict bedrest, I was able to work from home) allowed me to walk into my c-section at 39w on St Patrick's Day 2009. And my prayers were answered.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Trying to get back on the wagon
I actually ate well all day yesterday at work. It is easy when you bring your breakfast, lunch and 2 snacks to work, and don't succumb to the cafeteria. Dinner was pretty good, though I did have 1/2 an extra helping of chicken enchiladas - one of my favorite meals. But the scale stayed the same this morning. Usually on the day AF arrives I see this mega-dip on the scale. Very weird. I wish it would hurry up and get here. I do miss the days of being on the Pill - AF was 36 hours long. I barely noticed it was there. And it arrived within the same 2 hour window every 4th Tuesday.
Another thing I don't like about being off the Pill is PMS. I guess I shouldn't say that it necessarily has to do with being off the Pill and maybe just the nature of the beast of having a 4 year old and a 1 year old. But I definitely feel that my PMS is worse than it used to be and I don't like feeling so crabby. But I don't want to go back on the Pill at age 40 when I don't need it for birthcontrol anymore.
So I just want to get through today. Ignore the cupcakes at home :) And start preparing for Thanksgiving and tomorrow I can write about what I am thankful for.
Another thing I don't like about being off the Pill is PMS. I guess I shouldn't say that it necessarily has to do with being off the Pill and maybe just the nature of the beast of having a 4 year old and a 1 year old. But I definitely feel that my PMS is worse than it used to be and I don't like feeling so crabby. But I don't want to go back on the Pill at age 40 when I don't need it for birthcontrol anymore.
So I just want to get through today. Ignore the cupcakes at home :) And start preparing for Thanksgiving and tomorrow I can write about what I am thankful for.
Monday, November 22, 2010
3 day set-back
3 days, up 3 lbs. Ugh. But I should be able to get back on track today. I have to! I was not at all pleased with my behaviour over the weekend. I had Kraft Mac & Cheese both days for lunch. I had 3 homemade cupcakes. Meals were unplanned. I didn't drink much water. I nibbled. Overall, not good at all. Add AF should be here tomorrow and PMS was in full steam, it was not good!
But today is another day. I do have a lot of stressful things to do at work in the next 3 days. Thankfully Wednesday I can work from home so I can get my Thanksgiving shopping done.
Vacation is 10 days away and I want those 10 days to be overall a good food experience. I don't like Thanksgiving food and that is only 1 meal out of 30.
But today is another day. I do have a lot of stressful things to do at work in the next 3 days. Thankfully Wednesday I can work from home so I can get my Thanksgiving shopping done.
Vacation is 10 days away and I want those 10 days to be overall a good food experience. I don't like Thanksgiving food and that is only 1 meal out of 30.
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