I made myself get on the scale...

Not a pretty # - 219.0. But I did it. I haven't stepped on the scale in over a month - life at home and at work have been so stressful that the old habit of 'if I step on the scale and I don't like what I see, I am going to have a crappy day' came back. But things are getting better, plus I knew I was gaining even more weight, so I needed to see the damage.

The good news in my life is that we are buying a house. We close on June 27th. Our current house has been on the market for about 10 days. Logistically it would be nice to close on our current house after the new one, but financially it would be nice to do it the same day, but I think we've reached the point that if we don't have an offer now, that isn't going to happen.

It is going to be a long summer as all the kids daycare/camp is near our current house, not the new house. So I am going to have a double commute twice a day. Which means breakfast and dinner could be on the road a lot this summer! But I am prepared to do what I need to do to eat healthly foods myself.

The first thing I did this morning was calculate the points of my granola and as expected I was horrified! My favorite cereal was discontinued several months ago and I have not found a good replacement. This morning I bought a new cereal and will start measuring again.

I stocked up on ice cream treats for the summer and got myself some skinny cow ones.

I will continue to weigh myself each day.

I need to up my water intake again.

less sugar, less salt.

I can not commit to exercise at this point. Now that the TV season is over, I am hoping I can start getting to sleep earlier and I would like to do C25K again - it was been almost 4 months since I have run. But at some time we are going to need to start packing up the house and thus my nights may get long again.

In my dream I would lose 20 lbs by Labor Day weekend which would bring me to 199. But 20 lbs in 14 weeks is pretty agressive for me knowing that we are moving during this time and that our schedules will be completely influx. I would to at least like to get down 10 lbs.

I wiil, i will, i will post a lot.

Neither here nor there....

We had to walk away from the house that we put an offer on - the foundation was not straight in one area and they had made attempts to brace it. After we told them we were walking away, the sellers said they had all this documentation stating the foundation had been testing and was secure. We had to tell them 'too little too late - that is what disclosures are for' It killed me to walk away because there just haven't been any other houses even remotely in our price range in the towns we want to live in. Yet we continue to get our house ready for the day we do find a house we love.

And yet we continue to live in limbo about everything - our house is disorganized as we try to organize it - but even then it wouldn't be the way we would want it permanently. And once it is staged, trying to live with it like that and with 2 small children.

With sadness the last race I had signed up for and had to blow off was last weekend - maybe next year. Maybe after this weekend I can start to get back on track, slightly. The treadmill is in its new home in the basement, the mornings are light, I shouldn't have any excuses after this weekend. I hope and pray.....

I am alive....

It's been forever since I posted, but there just isn't much to post health-wise, because it was been the farthest thing from my mind.

Once we decided to try to move, it's been full steam ahead. Originally my realtor wanted to list our place in mid-late March, but we have too much work to do. We are trying to list it on April 25th. With my husband busy at his new job, the planning has been all on me. But he's been great in the execution department. My parents took the kids all weekend this weekend and we got a ton done. But we still have a bunch to do, so if we can't get contractors in in time, then the date will be pushed out.

Then there is the other side of things - looking to move. The town we want to move to, the town we've been looking at for 2 years, has had very limited inventory so far this spring. The ajoining town, which is much more expensive, has a ton of inventory, but in our price range, the houses are 20+ years old and will need more work in the immediate future, plus the master bedrooms just aren't very big.

We put an offer on a house in our desired town and the offer was accepted. But we found out after the fact that the house is on wetlands so what we would be able to do could be limited plus we would have to go through hoops to be able to do it. We have this inspection this week - we are crossing our fingers that everything goes okay. Walking away would be so hard! And I am not sure if we would be able to move unless something else good comes up - but at least our house will be done so we could move on a moment's notice. I would just hate for Ellie to have to start school part-way through a school year - even Jack for that matter.

Needless to say, I haven't been running since February 5th. I've blown off 2 races already and probably will blow off the one I signed up for in 2 weeks. I hate to do it, but there just hasn't been the time or the energy. I will get back to it. I did pull out my stuff tonight, so after the carpet is in installed in a week, hopefully I can get back on treadmill, and in a couple weeks it should be light enough in the morning in order to get outside again. Crossing my fingers.

Weekly Weigh-in

Last Week: 211.8
This Week: 211.8
Change: 0.0

Somehow I showed a loss of 1.4 at WW even though I was the same on my scale this morning, which is what I post. I forgot my cereal (when WW was at 11:00 I wouldn't eat breakfast, but now that it is at noon I have to eat!) so only had yogurt plus I went to the bathroom a few more times this week.

I almost didn't want to put on my WW dress this morning. But I did. I didn't want to show a gain that would have been there had I worn regular clothes.

This weekend I have a very depressing post coming up as it will be 1 year since I started gaining :(

Life continues to be stressful. My boss was out on vacation this week and I had a ton of work, plus all the house stuff. We've been scrambling to try to pack up 1/2 our house so we can do work to sell it. Wednesday my realtor told me the depressing news of what she thinks we should list my house at. Ugh. But if we change the counters and paint and re-carpet the basement we could list it at $10K more. So this weekend we are renting a U-haul to not only take the rest of the stuff we intended to to the storage unit, but also almost all of the basement so we can do this work. Ugh!

And I am battling another chest cold, so even if I had enough energy to run, there is no way I could

Eating has been far from stellar, so I was actually pretty suprised with a maintain this week. Hectic nights of packing and looking at houses and I took yesterday for a girls day with my daughter, so lots of meals out. And we're trying to eat our way through the pantry so some meals aren't that great.

Days at home can be hard...

Finally another Friday, and that means working from home. Silence in the house. But eating on these days can occasionally be tricky. I try and try to eat as I would at work, but so much temptation. And so much stress! A ton of work to do and tons of packing. I should have called contractors to do work on the house but I ran out of time and desire and guts - I hate calling people I don't know!

I ran out of time for a snack before picking up the kids, so I grabbed a bottle of Slim Fast. I used to drink it every day for breakfast. Once they stopped making the cans, I thought they didn't make the cappucino ones anymore. But I saw them in the store the other day so got some. Big freaking mistake! Caffeine really affects me, a lot. So needless to say, drinking it at 4 pm had me up until 4 am literally. My mind was racing with all the things I need to do. It sucked. So I am majorly dragging today.

I did only have 1 portion (alebit probably a little big) of my favorite chicken/pasta/broccoli dish I make. The scale said 209.2 this morning!

I had my first phone coach session with the nutritionist through work.Eh. I was no impressed. It will  be 20 minutes once a month. That is not what I need. But it's free so I will stick with it, but thankfully I have WW for weekly weighins and I have the internet to write on.

Weekly Weigh In

Last Week: 216.4
This Week: 211.8

Last week was still completely over inflated from the Superbowl and such. This week could be a little low because I have this bizarre thing where the day AF arrives, my weight dips. Don't know why!

I am wearing the WW dress and ready to go. This past week has not been great. I have definitely had some mini-binges, all coming in the late afternoon/as I am making dinner. Remember how I said once I had to be the one to make dinner, it would be better? It is in some respects, but also I am in the kitchen by myself and no one can see me if I am eating grated cheese out of the bag, or munching on Wheat Thins dipped in Nutella.

As for the portions I am trying to do better. Yesterday I meaured out 1 cup of pasta for dinner and didn't have any more, as much as I wanted to!

The moving stress is coming on, it really is. I knew I would be in it myself as my husband is busy with his new job and studying, but it is pretty overwhelming. I don't want to be like my friend who didn't run for 10 months when she moved. I know I need to run to get rid of the stress. I really, really want to get up tomorrow morning and get on the treadmill. My next 5K is 4 1/2 weeks away and I need to run!

I need to go grocery shopping tonight but I haven't menu planned for the week! As long as I buy dairy and fruits and vegetables I should be okay. We have a large pantry and chest freezer which we need to eat down. But I still need to menu plan so I know what we are eating every night and I can plan for myself.

I am just full of excuses....

I did pull out my work out clothes and I did set my alarm for 5:30....but I changed it to 6:00 before I even went to bed.

I had a homeowners association meeting last night that I had to leave dinner to go to and didn't get home until after 9:00. I still had to put together everything for Valentine's Day this morning, so I didn't even get into bed to relax until almost 10. I did got to bed at 10:30 but I just wanted into it. Plus my son continues to come into our room almost every other night. It was usually around 3-4 so the thought of getting up in a couple of hours kills me.

I am working from home today and doing my best (so far!) to eat as though I was at work. It can be very, very hard sometimes though!