Saturday, June 29, 2013

Weekly Weigh-in #30

Starting Weight (12/1/2012): 232.2
Last Week: 211.2
Current Weight: 212.4
Change Since Last Week: +1.2
Total Change: -19.8
Height: 5'6"
Goal: 149

I am beyond mad at myself. Need to get back on track! But if I look at my daily log, there are definitely a lot more comments in the 'what I did wrong' column than the 'what I did right'. Yes there is a holiday coming up, but not one that we celebrate with a lot of food, so I *should* be able to have a good week if I work on it.

My daughter is away for the night, so I let myself "sleep-in" to 6:45 so I am blowing off WW this week :(

Friday, June 28, 2013

Continuing to have trouble getting back on track.....

I woke up at 5:30 am on Wednesday planning to do planks and an interval workout on the treadmill.

I did 5 minutes of warm up on my bike and the planks kicked my ass. Then I tried to do the intervals on the treadmill and started out way too quickly and gave up pretty quickly. I pulled out the computer to do a bootcamp workout instead but the laptop was dead. So I gave up after 10-15 minutes downstairs.

I worked from home and was stressed about work so I found myself munching on trail mix (nuts, M&Ms, raisins) and garlic pita chips.

Thursday morning I was just too tired to wake up.

Last night we went out to dinner - I knew beforehand that I was going to eat a lot. We were celebrating 1 year of closing on our house so we went to Chili's which is where my husband and I went to after the closing. I had 1 drink, many appetizers, shrimp tacos, and we all shared a cookie/ice cream dessert. I couldn't do anything last night because my belly ached.

This morning I did get up and did strength training which I should have done yesterday morning.

We had a going away party for a collegue, so I had 2 pieces of pizza, salad and a 12 oz coke for lunch.

I think I will probably have another gain tomorrow :(

But tomorrow is another week - yes a week with a holiday, but I SHOULD be able to be on track, I hope. Planning on my long run Sunday morning and TOM will be over, so hopefully a good week!

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Woke to work out - not running!

My obstacle race is 10 1/2 weeks away - I was originally going to start training last week, but that didn't happen, so I said this week has to be it! Instead of 3 weeks per routine, I am going to do 5 weeks.

Monday - Rest
Tuesday - Strength training - this morning was weighted squats, push ups, bent over row, lateral raise, bench press, upright row, tricep kickbacks, curls, crunches - The strength training is done in pairs, so you alternate sets of 2 exercises
Wednesday - planks, intervals on the treadmill, abs
Thursday - Strength Training - lunges, push ups, squats, shoulder press, more squats, core work, tricep dips, curls, abs
Friday - some sort of cross training - this is my own workout - the training plan is only 4 days, abs
Saturday - Agility workout - going to create an obstacle course in the backyard. Should be fun to do. Just not sure what time I will do it. With my summer schedule, I have to go grocery shopping after WW and when I am done, the backyard may already be sunny, abs
Sunday - Long run, again, this is my own work out, not part of the training plan - not sure if I'll be able to get in ab work

To have a schedule, to have something to check off, motivates to get me out of bed. I miss strength training. I did a 5 minute warm up on my bike which felt great - I need to pump up the tires and adjust it some.

Can't wait to do some planks and intervals tomorrow!

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Weekly Weigh-in #30

Starting Weight (12/1/2012): 232.2
Last Week: 213.8
Current Weight: 211.2
Change Since Last Week: -2.6
Total Change: -21.0
Height: 5'6"
Goal: 149

So I am down 2.6 from last week (when I didn't get a chance to post), but up 2.8 from 2 weeks ago (yes, I was up 5.4 last week - but at one point, after Chinese good, I was up 8 lbs!)

But I did go to my meeting this morning and I was so happy I did.

Hoping the 2.8 lbs are gone in 2 weeks.

I am still sore from my run on Thursday, but plan on going out tomorrow morning as well.

Happy Summer!

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Back to running!

I had 3-4 hours to myself this morning, so what did I do - I ran! I drove up to the flat, shaded, rail-trail I've been running on with my friend. I did 4.25 miles in 56:10 - I only walked for about 30 seconds when I turned around. I actually ran 2.25 miles out, so ended up stopping and walking before I got back to my car. Since my last outside run, 18 days ago, was 3.65 miles, I figured pushing myself to 4.5 was probably too much.

I did start out too fast - I started running my 12:30 pace, thinking 'oh, maybe I can keep that up for 4+ miles' - Me and my friend run slower than that, but we are also talking. So the run back was definitely harder and slower.

Running is so much mental. I listened to a different playset - a fun playset I have of mainly wedding dance music, so the beat was definitely better than I've had in the past. I don't really like modern music, so a lot of the playlists I see on FB and Pinterest are not songs I really want to run to.

I am going to try to get out for another long run on Sunday - my friend's brother is getting married on Saturday, so this will be another solo run.

The scale this morning was only 4.4 lb above 2 weeks ago - If I show a gain between 3 and 4 lbs on Saturday, I think I can live with that. My hope would be to be back to my WW 10% by the 6th of July. But me and goals usually aren't great!

We got our umbrella for our deck yesterday, so the deck is finally complete, and we've got a nice stretch of weather ahead, so lots of dinners al fresco! I am going to get lots of fruits and veggies at the store to bulk up on those instead of carbs. I don't eat a ton of meat, but I do want to experiment with lots of recipes this summer. And force myself to eat small portions - that is the challenge!

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Slowly getting back on the wagon.....

I went to work on Monday and Tuesday and ate well. And when I got home, dinner was ready for me (yeah!) and I ate fairly okay - no snacking before, but I did have a cupcake each night - I removed a majority of the bottom so I was mainly eating frosting, but I tried to grab the smallest ones. Thankfully the cupcakes are almost gone!

I have the remainder of the week off and I have today to myself (another yeah!) I went grocery shopping and stocked up - though I'll need to go later in the week/weekend for more produce. And I went to BJ's to stock up as well (and avoided all of the free samples). Fresh City is on my way home - a place I LOVE their burritos and their salads (and the 2-3 times I go a year, I get both). I chose to just keep driving by. I was 5 minutes from home. I needed to get home and eat my if-I-were-at-work snack and lunch, which I am doing now.

The scale hasn't budged much  - 5.4 pounds up from Saturday the 8th. The fact that I lost 6.6 lbs in 3 weeks, which is completely insane for me, makes me wonder where my body is trying to set at. TOM is arriving on Saturday, so I am just trying to avoid the PMS munchies and know that it will probably be another 10 days before I know exactly how much "permanent" damage I have done on the scale.

In the back of my mind I considered not going to WW this weekend, because the scale will be up probably 4-5 lbs and that is embarrassing. But I know I have to go. I may chose to take a pass on the scale, but even that I am thinking I shouldn't do. So I have gained. I did have 7 weeks of losses - big losses.

I need to get back to exercising. I am thinking that after I drop off the kids tomorrow I will go running.  I have never run more than 3.14 miles on my own, so this will be a mental challenge. But I would like to do it, then I can go again on my own on Sunday morning.

Tomorrow is my daughter's last day of 1st grade. I am eager for it to come. I feel like our transition year is coming to a close, though we technically didn't start our new work/school/commute schedule until the end of August. I want to organize like crazy the next couple of days and then just live for the next few months.

Monday, June 17, 2013

No posts = not doing so well.....

Well, when the scale this morning was almost EIGHT pounds higher than 9 days ago, it can really put you into a funk on a Monday morning.

Last week I thought the 4.5 lbs would disappear overnight, and they did not. So Wednesday I decided to say "screw it" and didn't bring any food with me to work - I had my yummy yogurt parfait AND a breakfast sandwich for breakfast.I had a sandwich wrap, homemade chips and a 12 oz coke from the cafeteria.

Thursday was Field Day at my daughter's school. After my normal breakfast, and no morning snack, she treated me to lunch - chocolate milk, a hotdog on a whole wheat bun, and chips. I was starving by dinner because lunch just didn't cut it for an adult and I had no snacks. My husband was not home for dinner, so me and the kids kind of pieced together a meal.

Friday - Sunday we were away and meals were sporadic. My husband is okay with passing on breakfast and lunch, and his sister (who I am pretty sure had an eating disorder) won't eat anything until dinner.

Friday me and the kids ate breakfast and I had a snack before we left. We stopped at Unos for an early lunch - I had a 1/2 size salad and 1/2 a flatbread pizza - no soda, no appetizers, no dessert. Then that was it for the rest of the day....! We were with my in-laws at dinner, and while we had gotten food for the kids, it was decided that we would pick up dinner on the way home. We got back at 10:00 at night - I chose to go to bed instead of eating frozen pizza at that time.

Saturda me and the kids ate breakfast before going to the burial. After that we went to Applebee's - I was starving, and not knowing when/where/how I would get dinner, I got a trio of appetizers, plus a 1/2 size salad - no soda, no dessert. My husband and sister wanted to go to a restaurant for dinner at almost 8:00, but I chose against it and I fed the kids back at the hotel and ate a weird combination of foods myself.

Sunday we went to brunch for Father's Day - I had eggs, toast, potatoes, and coffee cake. We were driving home during lunch, so skipped it, so I snacked on Chex Mix (WAY too much of it!) and then had a lot for dinner - and late too.

So I hope part of the EIGHT pounds this morning was due to salty chex mix and salty teriyaki marinade. But I know all of it wasn't.

And have I exercised since last weekend? No....Both nights away I laid out my clothes (there is a rail trail right across the street) but I really didn't have the time and I would have woken up everyone getting out the door, so I didn't.

Another thing I haven't done in the last week is get enough water in, so I am trying really hard.

So this week, even though I am off Wednesday - Friday is:
-Drink a ton of water
-Eat my normal foods
-No snacking
-Small portions at dinner
-Go for a run; get moving
-Go to WW on Saturday even though I will show a HUGE gain

I am really, really mad at myself. I am eager to see where my weight really is at and how much work will need to get me back to my 10%.

Monday, June 10, 2013

I survived my 25th high school reunion.....

It was a lot of fun. And of course I was happy to see that I wasn't the only one to have gained weight - granted, a ton of women looked fantastic and like they did in high school, but not all. I am hoping that I can make it back next year, as I had a lot of friends from the class of 1989, and I hope to look fantastic then as well. Not to my goal weight, but 52 lbs lighter I hope!

I was sad that I didn't dress up as much as I could have because I just couldn't find a dress that I liked how it looked on me.

But now back on track. The scale was up 4.5 lbs this morning! Combination of dehydration and the amount of food I ate Sunday to compensate for the awful hangover. A fun reminder of why I don't drink anymore!

I can just hope to maintain by June 22....but the little I know of where we are going to be eating next weekend, it is going to be very hard!

Saturday, June 8, 2013

Weekly Weigh-in #28 - 10%!

Starting Weight (12/1/2012): 232.2
Last Week: 211.0
Current Weight:  208.4
Change Since Last Week: -2.6
Total Change: -23.8
Height: 5'6"
Goal: 149

I HIT MY 10%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got my key chain this morning. Yeah!

I was completely floored by this number, seeing that I was 2..2 lbs heavier yesterday morning.

But I've got challenges ahead this week - leaving in a little while to go to my 25th reunion, which will be a calorie fest. And then next weekend I'll be away for 3 days, eating out.

My goal for 2 weeks from now should be to maintain this weight, but I am also SO close to my 25 lb weight, that I would love to go to WW in 2 weeks and get it.

We'll see!!

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

25 years ago.....

This weekend is my 25 year high school reunion. I am looking forward to it, but dreading it also.

I went to boarding school, so it wasn't your typical high school experience. I say it was way, way, way better. I had a lot of experiences in high school that people don't have until college. And when college came around, I couldn't wait for it to be over. My brother had just graduated and I saw the "real life" - ie living in his own apartment, going out, all that fun stuff. Plus I met someone early on in college, who for 7 years I thought would be "the one" so I was eage to get college over with and on with my real life.

But high school was fantastic. I didn't live at home, there weren't cliques - and well if there were, I didn't care about them. My school was large - 1,200 kids but spread across 2 campuses, which were 5 miles apart. So a large number of kids in my class, I didn't have much interaction with. But that didn't matter. Unfortunately they have closed down my campus and consolidated the school into 1 school on the other campus, not "my school", so that is where reunion will be held and the majority of the people coming back for reunion lived on that campus. So that is the main reason I am not as excited, because not a lot of "my people" will be coming back. Can't reunion be mandatory?!

And of course the other main reason I am not excited is because I don't look anything like I did when I graduated. For our 5 and 10 year reunions I was probably 10-15 pounds less than I was on graduation day. Now I am 70 pounds heavier. But I am okay with that - I keep telling myself that there will be other people there that have gained weight in the past 25 years.

In preparing to go to reunion, I've been going through my scrapbooks and taking pictures (because I am too lazy to scan), as well as uploading pictures from the last 10+ years. I came across a couple of pictures taken at our 10 year reunion and I saw a picture of this one girl who I know is heavy now (or at least she is on FB) and I was surprised to see that she was heavy at 10 years. I hadn't remembered that. It must have been that I wasn't in that mindframe. It wasn't on my radar. But now I am so self-conscious of it, now I am totally fixated on it.

A year ago, the reunion committee posted on FB that reunion was a year away and "time to hit the gym" - At the time, I had zero desire to go. It didn't even phathom to me that in 52 weeks I could have lost most of the weight - I was in the middle of the move, my life was so up in the air, my weight was still on it's way up - I probably continued to gain another 15 lbs from June 1 until December 1 when I re-joined WW.

But here I am now, where I think I probably was on New Year's Day 2012, so I have thankfully wiped out the gains from 2012. Now to work on the gains from 2011!!! Goal is to be back at my "starting point" - ie where i was when I started to re-gain the weight - by New Year's Day 2014.

I am going to go and enjoy myself this weekend and will probably walk away after the 24 hours relieved that it is over and will feel like a HUGE weight is lifted from my shoulders and go back home enjoying my current life, because while I wish I wasn't almost 43, I don't want to be 16 again. I'd be okay with 28, but having the knowledge, the experiences, the money and the family that I did not have back then.

Monday, June 3, 2013

Time to get back to work....

The heat wave is over, thank goodness, because my poor burned shoulders/back aren't very happy. It is pouring rain, but still humid, but by this afternoon the humidity should be gone and be more comfortable in the 70s this week.

I am dragging a little this morning. I crashed last night around 10. At 12:30 my son woke up with a wet bed - my husband was still up so thankfully he took care of it, but with the rain and the interrupted sleep, I am beat.

Yesterday me and my friend met at 7 am to get a run in - 3.63 miles - Not quite as long as I would have liked, but despite being hot and humid, we got it in. I am going to TRY to do 4 miles this weekend - I will be on my own, so it may be a little harder.

9 days without soda! But yesterday was definitely a munchy day.

Saturday we stopped by McDonald's after enduring soccer in the 90 degree heat. I got a grilled chicken wrap, but I also got a small chocolate shake. I didn't get fries. Dinner was 'fend for yourself' so I had left-over pasta and salad from Thursday, but did nibble some of the kids leftover pasta as well.

Sunday I bought 6 Dunkin Donuts after my run, but didn't have any. We went swimming with my parents, but purposefully asked to meet after lunch so I could eat at home. But I was starving when we got home since i hadn't packed a snack or had any water. So there was licks (making frosting to practice cake decorating), munchies (potato chips) and a pretty good size dinner (burger on WW bun, corn (with light butter), cucumbers, potatoes in the grill).

So the scale was up 2 lbs this morning from Saturday, but it is a new work week and 5 days to get it back.

I am going to try, try, try to get up a lot this week to work out. Today is a day of rest.

Saturday, June 1, 2013

Weekly Weigh-in #27

Starting Weight (12/1/2012): 232.2
Last Week: 212.8
Current Weight:  211.0
Change Since Last Week: -1.8
Total Change: -21.2
Height: 5'6"
Goal: 149

Happy 6 month Weight Watchers anniversary to me!

I am 1.8 lb away from my 10%
I am 3.8 lb away from 25 lb washer

We have zero plans this week! We may go out to dinner tonight because my husband is working hard outside in the heat on our deck and I have no dinner plans, but I would like to go to Applebee's if we do.

My 25 year high school reunion is a week away - it would be so wonderful to start that day with my 10%! But I don't make goals. They never work. In 2 weeks we will be away all weekend which will be very challenging eating-wise.

But I am eager to get out of the 210s. The last time I saw a weight in the 220's was April 24. Being in the 200's would just be SO wonderful!

So I am going to have another week of really, really trying.