I haven't run since my 5K 11 days ago - I am dieing to do it! The busyness of the holidays is upon us. I had hoped to go on Sunday but it was 17 degrees outside and I didn't want to get sick before Christmas and the thought of the treadmil just wasn't appealing to me at the time - excuses I know.
Tuesday I had my 6 month follow-up mammogram. All day Monday and into Tuesday I was in a full blown anxiety attack - I could barely breathe, barely eat, heart palpitations, couldn't sleep. It was awful. And they took 2 sets of pictures, so 2 sets of waiting. But a sigh of relief when it was over. They still see something that they believe is a lymph node and they don't want to do anything more. I'll go back in 6 months for my annual exam (though I made it 9 months away!) This whole mammogram thing has seriously put me in an emotional tizzy for the last year. I honestly it has to do a lot with my 20+ lb weight gain this year. That along with everything else this year I just haven't been able to focus and have been eating my stress way. But at least I did the C25K and ran 2 5Ks this year!
I am not going to even do resolutions this year. Next week when I am off I am going to clean out the cupboards, organize the gym equipment, everything to start the New Year off right. Money is going to be extremely tight next year so I am going to have to be very wise about our grocery shopping. But I will still budget healthy foods.
2012 is going to be the year of Moving More. If that ultimately means a move of our house, that would be fantastic. But as a family we need to get out and move more. Hopefully the healthy eating with be there also, but moving is more important right now.
I've had a recent issue similar to you with mammograms and waiting, etc, so I totally feel your pain and know that it can wreak havoc on the emotions, which leads to overeating.
ReplyDeleteMoving More is a great way to enter the new year. I hope you enjoy your time off and have a very Merry Christmas!!
I am so sorry you had to go through the same thing. While I do not have a family history like you, my mom took a drug when she was pregnant with me to prevent miscarriages which can lead to an increased chance. Plus being overweight, and I did smoke at one point (while on the pill), it completely freaks me out. Plus a on-line friend was just diagnosed during her second mammogram ever, and a co-workers wife passed away last year at 44. I know there are tons of survivors like your mom and I've got to stop thinking that it would be a death sentence. But with kids it is just so scary! Okay, it's scary all the time!
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