This morning I woke up and weighed myself - groaned (211.8) and then made up my weight-tracking spreadsheet for 2012. I was reminded how little I used my tracker in 2011 which did do some part of assisting in the 20 lb weight gain. I know I weighed myself more then I put in the spreadsheet, but since I was never thrilled with the results, I didn't bother putting it in.
Also, I wasn't using my WW 3 month tracker where I would jot down the weight in the morning and then put it in my computer when I got to work.I want to use my WW tracker this year, but I think I will have my tracker on our home computer so I can run up in the morning and put it in - whether good, bad or ugly.
I remember all those days of 2010 when I would jump out of bed and run to the scale, excited about what it might say. I knew I had done the work the day before that could result in a loss. Even if there was a maintenance or a slight gain, I knew it would happen, i would taken ownership of it and do what I needed to do to be excited by the scale the next day.
In 2010 I told myself that I would step on the scale every day, no matter what. I said I wouldn't let the result affect my day - I used to believe that if I saw a gain, then it would mean the day would suck. And I let that happen again this year. I was so stressed in all areas of my life that I didn't want the scale the ruin the day even more, so more often than not I would not step on it. Or if I did step on it, I wouldn't record it. And even when the results was a gain, I wouldn't alter my day because of it. Hence, 1 year later, 20 lbs heavier.
I know there are a lot of people that don't let the scale run their lives. But I need to weigh in every day. I need to write it down. If I don't, I gain. That is just me. So that is what I am going to do in 2012.
As I was cleaning up my tracker, I unfortunately had to erace some of the 'goals accomplished' since I had such a slide. But there was one area where I got to add a lot of checks. That was moving! I had several goals - 1 to be able to walk for an hour, and then several indicating how fast I would be able to walk, ranging from 3.2 mph to 3.7 mph. I can do all of those. There was nothing about running!
Last night, during our typical boring NYE, I cleaned up our work out area. I pumped up the tires on my stationary bike. I moved the kids bikes to very inconvenient places in order to be able to access my weight bench. I should have no excuse to do some weights this year! To do more than C25K - not that that is a bad thing.
Off I go to run a 5K - not sure how I am going to do. I really feel pretty sick. I am pretty sure doing this will make me sicker, but I want to do it. There is almost 2000 people signed up for it, so I want the experience of a "real" race, with chips on the bib. And it is a good way to start the year. If I didn't do it, I would be afraid of what else I might give up on during the rest of the year.