I know that stress is a lot of my issues lately - Work has just been ungodly stressful.
But the more I think about it, for months I was just going through the motion of eating food and not really thinking about it or enjoying it. I wasn't tasting it. I was just eating it to get rid of the hunger. And I thought that was the answer. But I realize I wasn't tasting what I was eating and I missed the wonderful flavors of foods. But once I started wishing for the flavors, I found myself overeating. I write that like it is in the past tense - I continue to be struggling today.
So I am not exactly sure where to go from here. I think tracking is the only answer right now. To be accountable for the Lindt truffles in the freezer, the ice cream at 9 pm, the slices of cheese, too many pieces of pizza.
But even throughout this I continue to step on the scale every single morning which is incredibly important to me. The day I stop getting on the scale is the day I give up. I have weighed myself every day I've been home for almost a year - the only days I haven't weighed myself are days I have been away.
I will find my way back to weight loss. Not sure when it will be, but it will come.
Saying "I will find my way back to weight loss." is great!!! You refuse to give up. You see that something needs to change, but until you figure it out your hanging on with a tenacity that will get you to your goals eventually.
ReplyDeleteOne of my favorite quotes is "Success consists of getting up once oftener than you fall down" (or something like that).
You just hang in there. Boy have I been there before, but I also determined that I wouldn't quit weighing myself and I wouldn't quit. Period.
You know my journey has been a slower one, but I'm still down on the scale. It does come, just hang on. :)
You'll be in my thoughts and prayers as you figure this out.